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Monday, August 13th, 2007
11:38 pm

I was suppossed to meet Ben for a hike tonight at the park--Ben never showed up. Instead of going home and being bored, I decided to go for a hike. 

THe hike was nice, gave me a long time to think. Unfornately, I also lost the keys to the truck on the trail. I searched the trail until dark crying, and then called Jamie and told her. Jamie and Joe came down, then Mom came with flashlights. We didn't find the keys, so I am going to spend all tomorrow looking for them. I prayed and prayed to find them, so hopefully they'll turn up tomorrow. They are the only set of keys to the truck, and if they are lost, a new pair can't be made because a new ignition was put in the truck. And Mom will have my head. So hopefully.....

Current Mood: worried
Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
1:41 am
ONE. Give peoplemore than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry aman/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their
conversational skillswill be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you haveor sleep all you want.

FOUR. When yousay, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When yousay, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engagedat least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believein love at first sight.

EIGHT. Neverlaugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have

NINE. Lovedeeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way t o
live lifecompletely.

TEN.. Indisagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don'tjudge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talkslowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. Whensomeone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and
ask, "Whydo you want to know?"

FOURTEEN.Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say"bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. Whenyou lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN.Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others;
andresponsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don'tlet a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN Whenyou realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The callerwill hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE.Spend some time alone.
Thursday, October 19th, 2006
11:36 am
From my Daddy...
Too many people put off something that brings them joy just because they haven't
thought about it, don't have it on their schedule, didn't know it was coming or
are too rigid to depart from their routine.

I got to thinking one day about all those women on the Titanic who passed up
dessert at dinner that fateful night in an effort to cut back.  From then on,
I've tried to be a little more flexible.

How many women out there will eat at home because their husband didn't suggest
going out to dinner until after something had been thawed?  Does the word
"refrigeration" mean nothing to you?

How often have your kids dropped in to talk and sat in silence while you watched
'Jeopardy' on television?

I cannot count the times I called my sister and said, "How about going to lunch
in a half hour?"  She would gas up and stammer, "I can't.  I have clothes on the
line.  My hair is dirty.  I wish I had known yesterday, I had a late breakfast,
It looks like rain."  And my personal favorite:  "It's Monday." She died a few
years ago. We never did have lunch together.

Because Americans cram so much into their lives, we tend to schedule our
headaches..  We live on a sparse diet of promises we make to ourselves when all
the conditions are perfect!

We'll go back and visit the grandparents when we get Steve toilet-trained.
We'll entertain when we replace the living-room carpet.  We'll go on a second
honeymoon when we get two more kids out of college.

Life has a way of accelerating as we get older.  The days get shorter, and the
list of promises to ourselves gets longer.  One morning, we awaken, and all we
have to show for our lives is a litany of "I'm going to," "I plan on," and
"Someday, when things are settled down a bit."

When anyone calls my 'seize the moment' friend, she is open to adventure and
available for trips.  She keeps an open mind on new ideas.  Her enthusiasm for
life is contagious.  You talk with her for five minutes, and you're ready to
trade your bad feet for a pair of Rollerblades and skip an elevator for a bungee

My lips have not touched ice cream in 10 years.  I love ice cream.  It's just
that I might as well apply it directly to my stomach with a spatula and
eliminate the digestive process.  The other day, I stopped the car and bought a
triple-decker. If my car had hit an iceberg on the way home, I would have died

Now...go on and have a nice day.  Do something you WANT to......not something on
your SHOULD DO list. If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call
you could make, who would you call and what would you say?  And why are you

Make sure you read this to the end; you will understand why I sent this to you.

Have you ever watched kids playing on a merry go round or listened to the rain
lapping on the ground?  Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight or gazed at
the sun into the fading night?  Do you run through each day on the fly?  When
you ask "How are you?"  Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed with the next hundred chores
running through your head?  Ever told your child, "We'll do it tomorrow."  And
in your haste, not see his sorrow?  Ever lost touch?  Let a good friendship die?
Just call to say "Hi"?

When you worry and hurry through your day, it is like an unopened gift....Thrown
away.... Life is not a race. Take it slower.  Hear the music before the song is

It's National Friendship Week.  Show your friends how much you care.  Send this
to everyone you consider a FRIEND.  If it comes back to you, then you'll know
you have a circle of friends.

To those I have sent this to.. I cherish our friendship and appreciate all you

"Life may not be the party we hoped for...  but while we are here we might as
well dance!

Current Mood: happy
Friday, October 13th, 2006
3:15 pm

"But didn't work. 'Cause, you know why? When I didn't have Laura, I couldn't have me. Because everything I am now has something to do with her."
     -Davida Wells Hurum

Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
8:57 pm
They say the world's gone crazy...
College is incredible, someday I will do an actual update...it'll probably go on for pages and pages.

As for now, my best friend and floor mates are amazing. I cried tonight over some one, for the first time in a long, long time. I just needed to cry,  to get it out of my system, I was back to my normal self as soon as I was finished. Regardless, when I came back from dance club, they had bought me flowers, wrote me notes and gave me song lyrics to help me feel better. I've never had anyone treat me like that, besides boyfriends. For the first time in years, I have a true best friend and sister, and friends that care about me, and I do NOT have a boyfriend. It's empowering for me, it took a long time to see that I don't need to have a boy and I don't have "social problems". I'm finally beginning to love me for me and finding confidence in the way I live my life. Sounds cliche and corny, but it's true. And it's a HUGE step for me.  I've learned how to deal with my emotions and find ways to pick myself up again. I'm sure there will still be my moments, but I can deal with them now. 

But off of that tangent, my floor is home and it's so nice to have them.
Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
6:35 pm
And all I can say is that my life is pretty plain.
Last day home. I move into Nazareth tomorrow. I've been kind of clingy this week-Mom, Jamie and I had a girly afternoon yesterday and we layed out on the sun, I spent all this morning with Dad and tonight is my last night with Mom. Dad always gets the mornings with me before he goes to work, and Mom and I eat dinner together every night, watch bad television and spend time together around the house. I never realized how close I had gotten to my family. I may have wanted a party life during high school, but I'm actually really glad I became a homebody. I can't wait to go to school and have a busy life all day every day like at camp, but I'm looking forward to breaks to when I can come home and be a homebody again. I'm going to miss my house and family a lot. A lot a lot.

It still hasn't really hit me that I'm going to college. I've been dreaming of college since 7th grade and I have absolutely no idea what to expect. Crazy.

Charles and I are talking again. He made the grand gesture and it was a huge weight off me. I thought he'd treat me that way forever. It's not like how it used to be, he's still not my happy, goofy Charles, but hopefully we'll get back to that point. I know I'm still not comfortable myself being the way I was after all that has happened, so we'll see how it goes. I'm hoping for good things, none of this summer felt right without him. It took everything that happened this summer though for me to see what I want-it was a good reality slap.

The highlight of my day was talking to Daniel again today. I promised I would call before I left for school, and of course, he had still been sleeping when I called. Lazy bum. His schedule works out perfectly for his stay-up-all-night vampire habits. It's been a full year since we last talked on the phone, but it's still exactly the same. We pick on each other, I giggle, we tell each other everything that has been going on. After losing that with Charles all summer, it's good to have happy phone calls with Dan again. It's so good to be back to normal with Dan, friendships like ours don't come around often.

ANd now it's off to spend one last night with Mama, sew up my beauteous 80s dress, recover from the can of Pringles I demolished in one sitting, watch some awesomely bad television, and then get up at the buttcrack of dawn to head off to Naz.

LOVE. Wish me luck!!!

Sunday, August 20th, 2006
4:16 pm

It's been an interesting day. THe time seems to drag more and more slowly, leaving me way too much time to think and remember. 

THe highlight of my day was that I finally called Daniel, after promising to do so for 3 or 4 months. He's still the same old Daniel, except that he's even more happy than he used to be. He's such a good guy and I would be proud to have him back in my life. We've both changed a lot, but he was just so happy from the moment he picked up the phone to know it was me, and I was glad to hear him so content and it was really nice to hear him laughing again. He told me all about his experience in the Navy and we're going to go get real sushi when he comes home. It's nice that there's no longer any romantic tension on either side, we're just old friends. It makes me really happy to hear the life he's made for himself and to hear that he is doing so well. He was so excited for me to start college and loved to hear camp stories and my plans for at Naz. Somehow I found myself telling him all about what happened with Charles, and he was so reassuring even though it was the exact same thing I did to him last year. Guys like Dan don't come around often and I'm proud to say I know him. We made a phone engagement for before I leave for Naz and I look forward to talking to him again. It was hard though because it reminded me of talking to Charles throughout the year on the phone but I know that if I call him now, he's just going half-talk like he has been lately. It hurts so much because I did nothing to deserve being treated this way and I just want my friend back.  Every stupid thing the last week or so has reminded me of what we had. I just want Thursday to be here NOW so I can stop having time to think about it.

I've been talking to my room mate Jenna a LOT lately. A wee bit compulsive. She calls me every night and usually a few quick times during the day, and leaves me tons of messages online. Hopefully the intensity will wear off a little once we're into the flow of school. It is a good feeling to be close to a girl though, I'm so used to just talking with boys. That's one part I'm definetely looking forward to at school, all those "girl bonding" times. I've already made a few good acquaintances that I hope will continue when we get to school.

Some random things have happened the last week or so since camp ended. I went shopping with Mama and Jame in CA on Tuesday after camp and got a sweet 80's party dress at the Salvo. I still have to fix it, but I fully intend to wear it to the Mixer during Orientation. It's a beaut. 

I've failed my road test twice now. I always knew I was going to be one of those people who had to take it a bunch of times. It's all that pressure on you when you go to physically take the test, it kills me. I even finally have BOTH my parents approval, Mom said I'm one of the best young drivers she's ever been with. But I get so nervous when I go to take the test, I end up getting flustered. Hopefully I'll get it in the next year or so, it'd be nice to have so I could go out and do things when I'm home on break from college. Mama and Dad refuse to let me have Daisy at school, though. Buggers.

I also had an eye appt. at the mall on Friday and had to have my pupils dilated so she could check my eyes. That was a first. I had to walk around the mall with big teddy bear eyes the rest of the afternoon, with sunglasses on whenever the light hurt too much. I got a few strange looks for that, but I figured other mall-goers would appreciate it more than the intense look of pain that crossed my face whenever I happened to walk under a skylight, causing me to almost run into whoever happened to be near me. Mom and I ate huge ice cream sundaes for dinner on the way home because I needed comfort food. It's been a hard week.  I got clothing for dance at school, too-I can't wait to audition for the dance team, hopefully I'll make it. I'll just dance my heart out like I always do. 

I have the rest of today to do nothing and then I have to commence the packing frenzy. I also still have Breakfast at Tiffany's to watch because I'm on an Audrey Hepburn kick. She's right up there with Molly Ringwald.

                                                                       Songs of the Moment
                                                                Deliverance--Bubba Sparxx (Jared and Jon)
                                                                           Last Year's Love--David Gray
                                                                             Walk Over Me--Dirtie Blonde
                                                                  Tell Me Baby--Red Hot Chili Peppers (Jon)

Current Mood: confused
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
12:11 pm
Camp memories x2
-Making Chris Domanti "smell the flowers" by sticking it in his face at waterfront while we waited to go up to lunch, him and Matty C doing it on our way up the "cool trail", constantly getting squished into a "Joelle sandwich" on our way up the trail to lunch.

-Matty C and I playing the slapping game on our way fromt waterfront to lunch.

-Singing "Hotel California" back and forth with Lower Lot during check-in.

-My love of the "Doom Doom Dah Da" song after Ian taught it to me. DOing it with all the staff while we waited for campfire to begin after Scout's Own. Having competitions to do it as fast as we could during check-in.

-Jamieboy and I got really close this summer. He would come to waterfront while I was working there just to sit with me at the table or the table at the pool to just listen to music and talk about everything. Our hugs every day, just standing there hugging each other, perfect heights for it. We were "brother and sister" for the summer.

-That stretch of the summer that I dreaded walking back to Mtn. Man every night.

-"Wrestling" with Jon on the parade field--
"Joelle, you want to wrestle?", says Jon. "Sure", I say. I run at him, head down, drive into his stomach, and he takes me by the shoulders and hurls me all the way across the field. We spent the next 5 minutes on the ground laughing and vainly attempting to find my glasses in the dark. NEver again will I wrestle him.

-Falling asleep everywhere on camp

-Being picked up Jon, Vetter, etc all the time

-Playing "Asshole" by Dennis LEary at Mtn. Man

-The Mtn. Man theme song--RIDIN'!
Rolling into brunch the last day with it playing on our portable speakers.

-The dance beach party at HIgh Seas for Carrie on a Saturday night. The whole staff was there, everyone dancing around me in a circle the whole time, running back and forth with the "originals" to get new areas of dancing started. Jon only allowing my iPod to be played, playing all our songs. Doing the Cotton Eyed Joe dance with Kate and getting everyone else to. FINALLY getting Chris Domanti to dance. Everyone gathering around me to sing "Ridin'", Jamie and I yelled "CHRIS!" when he hopped in and started singing with us halfway through. Dancing and screaming with my sister. Everyone standing and talking on the front of the ship after we were done dancing.

-The night we did the roving dance party after I came down from Winter. Going from village to village, JamieIt jumping into Sam Evans room on accident, thinking it was Kevon Duffe's room. JamieIt shouting "Ohhhhh Myyyyy!", feeling horrible the rest of the night. We ended up at the nature lodge, everyone talking on the bench, JOn doing the creepy leg thing to me, Vetter introducing his "Thank You Allah for giving us Jihad" song. We ended up walkinng down to Cohn and tried to watch a movie. There was a half and half over whether to watch The Exorcist, the boys were all going to protect me while we watched it because they knew my huge fear and they promised not to laugh if I covered my ears and eyes. I was treated like the baby that night. :)

-Roaming with the group of boys every Sturday night, me ALWAYS the only girl, getting treated specially all the time, especially by boys I wouldn't expect it from like JamieIt and Matty D. I was treated as the baby of the group, getting special treatment, and I would spontaneously get bursts of energy and get them all going to do something.

-The "super staff shortcut" back to the staff site in Mtn. Man, how proud i was of learning it by heart by the end of the summer, how well defined it was by the end of the summer from everyone using it so much.

-Matty C and I constantly using every shortcut imaginable to get back to Mtn. Man

-Mtn. Man being the place to be for the first time in camp history-- staff came back to hangout starting during Staff Week, everyone showing up at Mtn. Man to "help" during closing staff days.

-Rendezvous becoming the place to be for program staff. We had random people every time by the end of the summer. I even brought Chris back with me the session I worked at waterfront.

-RENDEZVOUS TRADITIONS--Superstaff circle every time because we ate last after all the campers had eaten and gone, talking everything out while we were eating. Cooking the cookies in tinfoil. Relieving our stress by running as fast as we could across the meadow, screaming our lungs out and yelling "In-motion throw!" and chucking the extra food as far as we could into the woods. Beating up the tin pans that held the food just like the scene in Office Space. All that was started after a particularly stressful rendezvous and session with our program director. Getting the staff to participate in the "stress reliever" after each Rendezvous.

-THe Rendezvous the boys got a little thoughtless and Ian chased me around and around the meadow with a cooler of water to throw on me, luckily only getting my backside. He didn't realize 'til we stopped and I stated the obvious how bad it would have been if he had gotten the front. Ian being incredibly embarrassed about it afterwards.

-Constant sketchy remarks from Ian. Charles being way less than thrilled and jealous the rest of the summer and Bobby and TJ wanting to kick his ass. Trust me, I did NOTHING to bring on these remarks, and avoided him like the plague for most of the rest of the summer to stop the remarks.

-Ryan treating me like a princess the entire summer

-Doing CPR training with Sam Russell

-We had international scout work at camp this year, Sam Evans from the UK. We used to sit and talk about all the differences of our countries and she kind of adopted me as her little sister, really looking out for me at the end of the summer when everything was happening with Charles.

-Growing really close with my sister throughout the summer as she helped me to deal with Charles and hanging out with me the last few weeks of camp after we broke up. We would always cuddle in the office when I was feeling particularly sad.

-Going to Denny's the last Saturday night with Jamie, Jon and Jared. Having to spend way too much on nachos, getting laughed at for having the biggest item on the table and eating the least.

-Jared constantly knocking out the back of my knees.

-Jimmy, the awesome camper that loved to pick on me.

-One of the Dads called me his "pastel princess" the whole time he was here, always harrassing me for my bright pink bag and blue shoes while "roughing it" in Mtn. Man. I had to hold onto my feminine side somehow.

-The INCREDIBLE group of kids we had for Scout Reach. I got along so well with the kids, there were a few from the year before and all the boys in my village clung to me for the session.  THe kids were so sweet and so excited about everything, and they even came and stood at our staff site late one night during a storm because it made them feel safer to be near us. It was one of the best sessions all summer and the most fun.

-Getting picked on for not being loud by Matt and Ian.

-The Dads always picking on me, the moms bonding with me over the fact that we were females roughing it in Mtn Man

-One of the Scoutreach moms calling me "Carrie" because I reminded her of Carrie from Sex and the City

-Doing the MRE bombs the second to last night.

-Picking on Tyler Baldino for constantly rolling his eyes.

-Mtn Mans feelings about Zach.
Mtn Man powwows minus Zach. The Mtn Man family just being me, Ian and Matty C

-Ian's love of the "Candyland" song. Matty C and I creeped out by it, planning the horror movie with one of the Dads that we were going to make on Cutler.

-Poor Chris having it pour on his birthday AND be stuck out on the lake in it.

-Matty C and I obsessing over "jazz hands" for a session. Everywhere we would go we would look at each other and say "And....JAZZ HANDS" and leap out doing jazz hands, giggling incessantly. We got staff to do it, and I made a 5 billion dollar bet with an awesome camper in my village that I could get him to do it by the end of the session. It was a running joke.

-Going up to the parking lot to do "There Ain't No FLies" during village campfires at Frog Pond Stage.

-Finally having an all out battle with Castle doing "There Ain't No FLies" during village campfire. We stood at the head of the trail, they came out from castle and stood in front of us. We were literally toe-to-toe screaming in each others faces. All the male staff screaming in my face, and me screaming back, holding my own. MTN MAN WON!

-Dates with Carrie to play with our rodents in the nature lodge during Siesta

-TJ/BObby/Ryan's love of "Stay (Just A Little Bit Longer) by Jackson Browne and hearing it over and over the last few days.

-Heart to hearts with Bobby.

-PB+J runs at the dining hall with Jon at 2 in the morning every Saturday night.

-Attempting to bond with Amanda and Becca the first part of summer
, the only girls my age on staff.

-Doing the Hokey Pokey piggyback on my sister's back

-DAVEY COMING DOWN FOR A SESSION. We gave him his own brigade in Mtn Man and it was so GOOD to see him. I instantly cheered up when he told me the night before that he was coming.  Gossiping with him all day long, hugs, laying on the bed with him while we watched Without A Paddle. Walking back to Mtn Man in the freezing cold and waking him up the next day. I miss him.
-Getting Davey to make a "wood chip angel" in the mulch while we were waiting for campfires. Me giggling while he screamed about having woodchips in his legs. "Hey, I just suggested the idea. YOU went along with it, stupey".

-Watching "Without a Paddle" with Jared and Jon in Jon's room one of the last nights. The boys laughing at me when I couldn't stop laughing at the stupid deer part.

-Playing video games with Jon in his room during Siesta. HIm laughing so hard he fell over at how bad I was at the driving game. Us giggling as we spent way too long making my "pretty car". 

-My obsession with "slurping" the leftover soda on the rim of the can when Jon and I shared soda. It became a running joke the rest of the summer, even Chris Domanti picked on me for it. People just don't understand!

-Making paper snowflakes in HIgh Seas with Jon and Jamie boy during Siesta. Teaching Carrie how to make them.

-The hour plus game of War I played with Chris Tytler on the last day, which I won. :)

-Matty C and I giggling incessantly as we tried to "gallop" across the parking lot after brunches, shouting and unable to breathe, me screaming about how he has an advantage 'cause he's lanky.

-Me being christened David Hasselhoff (Chris Tytler)'s girlfriend, Patty Pat being our bodyguard.

-Patty Pat giving me shoulder massages everywhere we went, even while we were walking at night.

-Jon and my song "My Console", playing it in HIgh Seas so loud I thought someone was tearing his walls out.

-Jared named himself my "stalker" the very first night we met.

-Getting HORRIBLY SICK early in the season. I don't even remember how it started. I remember waking up one morning feeling horrible, having to run to the bathroom and not make it. It got horrible that night at Rendezvous. I had been feeling okay throughout the day but my intestines were bubbling during the cooking. I put hot sauce on my food like normal, but it didn't cook up in the fire. So I ate my food soaked in hot sauce. I made it almost up to the dining hall before I had to run to the outhouse along the road. I definetely did not make it. It was the most horrible sick experience of my life, I've never felt so badly. The rest of the night I was shaking and shivering and had a fever and felt like my whole body was going to cave in on itself. I couldn't keep anything down and I spent the entire morning the next day camped out in the big stall in the bathroom, wanting to die. RYan kept me alive on constant pill dosages through the night and morning. Dad came and got me and I spent the next session or two at home, coming back once the Saturday night inbetween, which was a huge mistake. I spent a good 4 days feeling like I was going to die, and I lost a lot of weight during it. I went back to camp the second day of the next session and felt alright 'til Rendezvous. Then I got sick again and was miserable trying to walk back alone from Rendezvous. After I stopped for a while at Winter I convinced myself I'd be okay and made sure I walked slowly and then I was fine the rest of the summer. It was a horrible experience though, one I hope I NEVER have to relive.
10:37 am
Camp memories
Now onto my summer. This summer was incredible, I couldn't have asked for a better senior summer, minus one large portion. I even survived living in a tent, I loved my tent from the first night I was in it.  These next tidbits probably won't mean much to anyone else, but if I don't write them down, I don't get to look back on them, so here it goes.

-Getting lost the very first night of camp. I hung out at Winter with Charles and Sam, then went to the dining hall to talk with Ryan, Mark, Jon and Josh. I spent a good hour or two talking with Ryan, only to have to walk back to Mtn. Man in the dark, with no moonlight. I made it halfway down the trail fine before I had to start feeling the ground to get back on the path. I wish someone could have seen me, I crawled along the path on all fours for a good half hour. Luckily for me, anytime I got truly off a lightning bug would fly by and I'd find my way back onto the trail. Then I made it into Mtn. Man and somehow got caught in the area of the cluster of 3 brigades. I spent the next hour or so crawling among the brigades, bumping into one tent after another or crawling off into the woods. I was screaming and crying for help the entire time, the boys were in their tents, but didn't answer. Matty C even sat up and listened to me, but didn't answer because he thought I was a "maniac in the woods". I ended up crawling into a random tent about an hour later, exhausted and soaking wet from the rain, on a wet mattress. I spent the night crying and shivering on the cot, falling asleep a little before morning. I woke up when it started to get light out the next morning, made it back to my own tent and crashed until 7 when the Cohn boys came to wake me up after their all-nighter. Then we all had a good laugh about what happened the night before. Matty C felt horrible about it the rest of the year.

-Playing indoor soccer in Winter with Charles and Sam.

-The "good job cheer"

-"Super staff circles"

-Standing in a super sraff circle, wiggling our fingers against our mouths for everything we said so it looked like we were telling secrets

-My pink plastic Tinkerbelle sunglasses and them getting worn by everyone, all day long

-Ian loving to wear my pink Adidas bag for me

-Joe calling me "Tinkerbelle" all summer, naming himself my big brother

-Lunch one day: Joe walks by and does the shy giggly wave, I do it back. One of the dad nudges me, smiles and says "Camp romance, huh?" and I say "Actually he's my brother" and the Dad yells "Oh I'm SO sorry!" Joe and I had a good laugh over it later that day

-Being the only female doing "JUMP LADY JUMP!" with all the guys on staff during "Old Lady Leary" at campfires

-The night charles had to go commando under his Indian outfit at campfire. I giggled, hard.

-Our villages awesome rendition of the Girlscout skit at closing campfire. It got the most laughs of any skit this summer.

-THe party at TJ's for the Fourth of July. Picking Sam up at the airport, getting lost on the way to the cottage, Charles and I talking with Ryan and Jamieboy, getting to share a tent with Charles and get ting to spend a whole night together for the first time.

-The whole fiasco with mark and Amanda, meeting up with random staff at Java's that night to discuss it. The guy in the parking lot who wanted money for crack.

-Playing music in Winter on their sweet set-up.

-My waterfront fling.

-The night Jamie, Chris Domanti and Joe came to visit Ian and I at Mtn Man early in the season.
That was the night Chris was christened "Chuck Norris". Sitting around the picnic table listening to bad music and watching Dane Cook on Chris's iPod. Joe and Chris getting into a physical competition, Chris kicking Joe (The MARINE!)'s ass in every single thing they did, even Stick. Jamie and I laughing so hard we fell over the entire time. I'm proud to say I was there that night.

-PB+J sandwiches during every check-in. Delegating who got to go make them this session. Kevon Duffe's "Does anyone feel like getting up and getting me a glass of water?"

-HIgh Seas dance parties during check-out. I would go to High Seas to help them finish cleaning because I knew from the year before how rough check out always was. A gaggle of boys would end up coming with me and Jon and I would play music on his huge amp. Once the cleaning was done, we would all run out to the deck and proceed to have a dance party on the deck and the decks of the ships. Jamie-It and Vetter would breakdance, everyone would dance the beat to "We Like To Party", everyone would crazy dance to the Numa Numa song, Vetter would do his signature move at the steering wheel of the ship and jump up onto the back of the ship and dance. Dance parties were definetely the best part of camp.

-Light saber wars with Mark on foggy nights.

-Mark and I dancing
to "Temperature", "Around the World", "I Want You" and "Ridin'" on his cell phone every chance we got.

-Me getting everyone to like "Around the World" by ATC during the mulching project.

-Ryan and Mark singing 'Ridin'" while we all stood around at the dining hall at night during staff week.

-Telling jokes in a group at the dining hall, Jonny doing the "Ask me if I'm a tree"

-Jon doing the creepy breathing with his hand on my leg bit

-Jon giving me the wide eyed look that would send me running and hiding under things

-"Super moms" the one session and how MUCH they stressed us out

-Me keeping my hand on Jon's leg to see who would break and smile first, I would manage it 'til he would put his hand down and "tenderly cup" it. Then we would both giggle incessantly

-Jamie-It and Jon teaming up on me during Scout's Own with me inbetween them, them both doing the creepy breathing so I would laugh and have no where to go. Them making faces at me while I tried to sing "My Rock", laughing so hard I couldn't stand up or get a single word out but still attempting to get through the song.

-My mouse Stewie at the Nature Lodge and the fight for his rights. I got the Rangers to give him to me, I had to buy him from them, and then I kept him at the nature lodge for the rest of the summer. All the Nature Boys trying to feed him to the snake, fights over the radio during Open Program about whether to feed him. Matty C and I trying to steal him. I was a woman of fury during Open Program and went to Waterfront and got everyone on my side. Getting all my campers to shout the rally cry of "Free the mouse!" at village camp fire and to defend him at nature the next day. Campers loving him at nature class every time I brought him out. Having my heart crushed when the Castle fed Stewie to Corny during their nature class, finding out when Bobby handed me his camera that he documented the entire thing on. I had to watch every second of my mouse being fed. It was one of the worst things all summer. Bobby getting reamed out by my sister and every Ranger on staff for doing it. Bobby felt horribly about it afterwards, as he should have. Stewie was going to come to college with me.

-Awesome village campfires. Matty C's love of doing "There Ain't No Flies", winning every time. Matty C and I leading all the songs and having the time of our lives. Me getting all the kids pumped up, making Apple Crisp every time (Jess and I made it better than Ian!) Carrying those damn Dutch Ovens. Matty C and I doing the Tarzan song. 

-The night Chris Domanti came to village campfire before his birthday, me getting all the kids to sing to him, putting a glowstick in his serving of Apple Crisp as his birthday candle. Staying late and burning the glowstick and assorted other items in the fire.

-Going to Langie to hang out with Chris Domanti almost every night from the first night Charles left to the end of summer. Walking back the first night, having the place to ourselves, being forced to watch baseball like he does everynight. Louning around the Langie TV area every night with him and all the other boys. Watching Next every night. Constantly being harrassed by the boys, giggling while Steve tickled VIPs. Lounging on the couch with everyone, everyone piled on top of each other-one of the great things about my camp friends, it's all boys so it's very relaxed and affectionate. Spending time with my sister at Langie, the only girls there.

-Chris Domanti playing bad music for me on his iPod while I worked at waterfront.

-Sleeping at the pool and waterfront with Chris Domanti while I worked there.

-Listening to music with JamieBoy at the pool while I slept.

-Dave and Chris pretending the canoes were Italian gondollahs at waterfront, Chris actually making it authentic because he IS Italian. "WHen the moon hits your eyes like a big pizza pie, thats amore".

-Dave standing out on the table in the lake all during Open Program when Matt and I worked there, trying desperately to catch a fish. Matty C, Chris and I giggling from the lifeguard chair on shore watching, convincing campers to go take Dave's boat and leave him stranded. Dave diving into the water on shore STILL trying to catch a fish, me almost falling out of the chair from laughing so hard.

-JAWBREAKERS AT WATERFRONT, everyone endlessly eating them, getting everyone into the purple ones, Chris and Ian always being sweet and digging through the bag to get me all the purples.

-Me constantly singing at waterfront

-Talking about what names people look like they should have behind HIgh Seas during Siesta, we all thought Jared looked like a Jake, me especially. So then then tried to change his nametag to say Jake with his knife, but it ended up coming out looking like "Jakel". We giggled and fought over it, he was christened Jakel the rest of the summer and I was Joellel. We called eachother that the rest of the summer and he carved our names into a box at High Seas the last day to commemorate it.

-"Baby Nick", my favorite VIP of the season. Me giggling as he constantly talked to me in the gay lisp, laughing over the fact that he is 7th in the nation for SQUASH. Yes, squash. "Oh Jesthusth Christht".

-Playing "baseketball" behind High Seas during Siesta and check-in. Then playing it with Fruit and getting an orange splattered all over my head. Sitting and laughing with my sister as Chris Domanti desperately tried to be able to do it.

-Getting everyone to play SnailBall at waterfront. Matty C and I would play everytime we went out on the lake for boating with the animals. Playing it with Jon and patiently naming every animal in our boat. JamieBoy and Jon playing it with real snails just to horrify me and because they thought you were actually suppossed to. I tried to explain it WAS played with snails until we realized what it did to them...as JamieBoy proceeded to smack a snail at that very moment and yelling "Oh schnikeys!" in his accent while a snail exploded in midair.

-Playing SnailBall on shore with candy during High Seas period while I worked there. Jon smashed the candy out into the lake. THen he and I giggled incessantly and almost fell off the table while we watched Chris Domanti try to do it 12 times and failing, getting worse every time. Watching poor Chris get embarrassed and falling over as we watched him throw it up to hit it, looking around desperately for it to hit it as it hit him on the head and bounced off.

-The boob shot Jamieboy took of Chris while we were working at waterfront during Open Program. Matty C and I giggling incessantly as we made it the background of Jamieboys phone, along with the weird jawbreaker picture of Chris that ended up looking like some weird fetish photo.

-Bonding in the chair at waterfront while I was there--Me, Chris and Matty C during Open Program, just talking and laughing; Mtn. Man powwows in the chair whenever one of us had to work at waterfront, Ian and I chewing on Matty C's clothing, us all giggling so hard. Everyone grabbing my foot and trying to pull me off the chair just to hear me scream.

-Endless short comments being made to me all summer, made worse by the fact that I had campers every session who were taller than me. Me being the shortest person on staff, even shorter than the 12 year old VIPs (no exaggeration).

-Watching The Wall with Charles this summer more than I ever have in my life.

-Sleeping parties at Winter with Charles and Sam during Siesta every day.

-Stupid fights with Charles every day.

-My love of the hot chocolate machine. :) The boys offering to get me some while we waited for brunch every session, all the boys helping me whenever it wouldn't work.

-Charles bringing me my fleece insert for my sleeping bag at midnight the the morning of our one year anniversary. Sitting with me in my tent 'til it was midnight. Going to bed smiling that night.

-Everyone on management teaming together to try and make sure Charles and I had a great one year anniversary, getting special priveleges all day long. Best part of the day was sleeping with him at Winter that night because he felt sick.

-The "office" of Winter.

-Pulling mattresses out into the common area of Winter so CHarles and I could be together.

-Mtn. Man staff constantly saying "ANd the PICKLESTH!" during Rendezvous.

-The obsession with "You guys want some cookies?!"
after TJ said it at the beginning of summer.

-Having fun doing "Little Bunny Foo Foo" at campfire every session, constantly getting called Little Bunny Foo FOo by campers and getting praise on it throughout the session. 

-The sessions that Zach, the Goodwins, and Ryan and RJ came (my favorite campers from my two years at High Seas).

-Matty C being christened "my man" for the summer because he acted more like it than Charles. Matty C and I being 'buddies' and giggling and jumping up and down over everything, our never ending plan making.

Current Mood: content
10:09 am
And when you kiss me on that midnight street, sweep my off my feet singin' Ain't this life so sweet
I have not updated ALL summer, so this very well could be a long one.
I had an incredible summer, I look back on it and smile and can't wait to go back next year. One of the biggest chapters of my life fell apart, it started right at the beginning of camp, but I'm not going to be sad about it anymore. Someone else made a decision, and I'm not going to feel badly about it any longer. I can look back and clearly see mistakes I made, but I didn't do anything truly wrong and I'm not going to make myself feel bad because of it anymore. I can count too many nights I went to sleep crying in my tent, too many days that I walked around with a lump in my throat. But I didn't do anything truly wrong and I am not going to bring myself down anymore because of it. He went through something this summer, I'm not sure what, but he wouldn't let me in, so it's out of my hands now. I've seen this tactic of his many times, he shuts down, but I just never thought he'd feel like he had to do it with me. I wanted to be there for him, but he already had it affirmed in his mind how he thought it best to be. I understand what he's been saying: we won't get to spend as much time together, he was insecure about me heading off to college and having a new life, new people. I think it could even have been good for us to deal with it, or maybe just time without each other like we are, but for whatever reason, he made his decision to end it. I'm not mad about it, I should be, but I'm not. He's meant too much to me to not take the oppurtunity to repair if it should come up. Hopefully different decisions will be made in the future, but right now I need to focus on the next big thing in my life. Everything I have ever known is about to change. I never wanted things with him to change, but they did and I'm going to proceed to the next part of my life. Hopefully this isn't the absolute end for us because that would be a shame after all we've shared together and still could, but I'm going to take this time to live my life and let him live his. Things happen most to me when I don't expect it and that's how I'm going to go on. Look how camp turned out to be-more happened than I could ever have hoped for. So who knows what might happen in my life, I'm open to anything right now and can't wait to begin college. It hurts, a lot, but it's probably one of the best things for me, no matter how much it might not seem like it right now.

My vast music supply has probably doubled in this past summer. There's more songs than I know what to do with. There are times I think I could probably spend the rest of my life just listening to music and be perfectly content. I don't understand anyone who doesn't love music.

And now to camp.
Thursday, June 8th, 2006
10:10 pm
The Circle Game
This is such a beautiful song, it makes me cry. I guess the fact that I'm graduating is starting to hit me...

   Joni Mitchell

 Yesterday, a child came out to wonder
  Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
  Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star

   And the season's, they go 'round and 'round
   And the painted ponies go up and down
   We're captive on a carousel of time
   We can't return, we can only look
     Behind from where we came
  And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game

 Then the child moved ten times around the seasons
   Skated over ten clear frozen streams
   Words like 'when you're older' must appease him
And promises of 'someday' make his dreams

   And the season's, they go 'round and 'round
   And the painted ponies go up and down
   We're captive on a carousel of time
   We can't return, we can only look
     Behind from where we came
  And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game

 Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
  Cartwheels turn to car wheels through the town
  And they tell him take your time it won't be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down 

   And the season's, they go 'round and 'round
   And the painted ponies go up and down
   We're captive on a carousel of time
   We can't return, we can only look
     Behind from where we came
  And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game

 So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
  Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
  There'll be new dreams, maybe better dreams, and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through

    And the season's, they go 'round and 'round
   And the painted ponies go up and down
   We're captive on a carousel of time
   We can't return, we can only look
     Behind from where we came
  And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game

  ..And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game..

Current Mood: nostalgic
Friday, May 19th, 2006
9:16 am
"Stellar performance"...
Life's a blur. I can't believe May is half over. I haven't wrote anything that's happened the last month or so.

Prom was the first weekend of May. Also the last weekend I got to see Charles before tonight.
I got all glammed up for prom--floor length simple yellow gown, gold Goddess stilettos, gold eyeshadow, gold body powder, golden nails, gold body powder. My whole family participated in a curling adventure-I had to straighten my hair to the best of my ability (it does not straighten under any means necessary) and then it was a female effort to curl my hair. I pulled it half back with long loose ringlets. Inspired by Paris Hilton. Charles came from camp for the glamming prepartions and then Katie and Ian came for pictures and to head to dinner at P.F.Chang's. The food was delicious, and everyone was staring at us in our prom-wear. We had a very attentive waiter and we eveng got free food, a good prom bonus. Afterwards we made a run on Target in our formal get-up to get necessary post-prom items. We had a contest to see how many looks we got (I believe we got up to 19) and going to the bathroom in a formal gown is not as easy as it sounds. We got to prom about an hour late, and danced the rest of the night away. Charles and I were in our own little world for the most part and I had to stand on his feet to slowdance with him. :) I had fun goofing around with him, and it was the most dressed up I've ever seen the prom attendees. The girls looked bonita. We left with Katie and Ian a little while before midnight, and then we used the hot tub 'till around 2 or 3. And then had to be up to go to Penfield at 5am. Super fantastic.

I'm all ready for Naz. I got my deposit in, I've signed up for my classes and dorm. Now I have to get all my class confirmations and find out who my room mate is! We formed a little group on Facebook for our class so everyone could get to know each other before we're thrown together. There are quite a few people I'm really excited to meet. Another girl named Joelle (the only one on campus!) who is the class ahead of me found me on Facebook and we've been talking. We're into all the same things and she got me into dance team, now I just have to audition in the fall. She's going to be one of my many Naz mentors. :) I am counting down every second 'till Naz.

Senior trip
was last weekend. I sat with Kelsey on the bus ride up (childhood best friend) and across from Katie and Ian. Kels and I had our own little nest in our seat with all our blankets and pillows, it was tres comfy. Kels, Brett and I walked around the park at Niagara Falls together, which was beautiful, but unfortunately, my mother forgot to put the memory card back in the camera. There was a creepy wax museum which I would not go near, and then we played in the souvenir shop. There were many fun items to be played with. When we got to the hotel, we got ready for our dinner cruise. Everyone got dressed up and the girls complained about only having "ONE HOUR!" to get ready. I got moved from 4 different tables by the stupid hostesses and the dinner was crap, but then both the school groups crowded onto the dance floor which was truly about yay ________ big. The Naples girls danced the entire time together with our guys in huge mosh and eventually the boys from the other school crowded around. It was fun dancing with all our grade, to all get out together one last time. The most fun was when Kels and I went up on top in the rain to get some air, and ended up dancing on the deck. It was a beautiful feeling: it was dark, we were on top of the ship, it was raining and windy and we could see the city all around us. My hair and skirt was blowing everywhere as we spun around and we had people coming up to deck to watch because they said it just looked beautiful. That was definetely one of the best moments of the trip, Kels and I just laughed and laughed. The other good part of the night was when they played "Honkytonk Badonkadonk" and we got the whole dance floor to do the Italian macerena, combined with the cowgirl move. THe other school kept going "Sweet dance!" and it was awesome to look across the dance floor and see every person doing the same dance.
Friday we went to Kalahari, an indoor water park. The slides were awesome, some of them even went outside. My favorite was the water slide roller coaster-the guy told us to lift up when we got to the top of the hill and we went so high that I flew up and almost out of the raft. A downfall of being small. We rode every slide a couple times and did a huge chain in the lazy river. A big group of us went in the huge outdoor hot tub and stayed there for almost an hour, just relaxing. After lunch we lounged on sofas and played games in the arcade. Morgan and I did DDR and we witnessed the pure definition of a down-home Jerry Springer fight. It was a mother and daughter pulling each other's hair, pushing, calling each other "hoe", etc. We went to the Cleveland Indians game that night, in the rain. I got my gigantic popcorn, and Kels and I became big Blake fans. Everyone wandered inside the stadium for a whil ebecause it was so cold, but we were there to cheer the entire last part of the game. Our team was really close but we lost by 1. There was an awesome fireworks show afterwards-huge fireworks and everyone was dancing and singing along to the retro music. It was a good class time.
Saturday we went to Cedar Point, the big amusement park in Ohio. I went in a group with Laura, Christine and Sam and we had the best time. We rode every ride and the whole time we were talking and laughing, and singing and dancing to the music throughout the park. It was the perfect group. We got the Italian macarena going in line again, it's so hard to stop once you get going. We kept doing group hugs and high fives, and we came up with our leaping Charlie's Angels move. THe only downer of the day was Christine and I, my rollercoaster partner, went on Millenium Force one last time when we only had 20 minutes left. We got on and off in time but we started sprinting back to the bus and got lost. We ended up showing up 10 minutes late. Everyone "boo"ed when we got on, and I felt horrible. The teachers didn't care, but I felt so paranoid at pissing off my grade. When we got to the hotel, though, everyone saw how upset I was and was giving me hugs and saying "Oh, Joelle, we aren't mad!" and "We don't hate you!". That was a good feeling. Everyone hung out in the hall for the last night, the basketball players and the fights, and Christine and I bought Ben + Jerry's and watched the Fresh Prince.
Sunday we headed home. We went shopping at the Galleria in Buffalo, and we had to tell Nick to go away while Sam and I picked out sexy underwear. That was awkward. I got my mommy a gift and on the bus back, our chaperones gave a prize to every person, I got "Most Friendly" on the trip. I was really friendly to the teachers, but I felt pretty shy aroud our grade for a lot of the trip, so they didn't understand why I got it. Oh well. My days of being shy are almost at an end. Only a few more weeks and then I'm back with CSAC staff lovers and on to Naz.
Big joke of the trip was the Barbarians movie that was randomly on the bus which we decided to watch. It was horrible, but so very, very quotable. They even included a quote from it in our announcement about the trip Monday morning.
I had to be the 5th wheel the first part of the trip until Cedar Point because I hung out with Katie, Ian, Kels and Brett. Katie and Ian are dating, and Brett and Kels had a sort of fling on the trip, so they were always in a group, paired off. Kim eventually replaced me as the 5th wheel when I started spending more time with other people in our grade.

Mband is going really well. Katie and I have fun as drum majors, we work hard and are sarcastic and playful and always moving around. THe little kids love us, and we got the majoring bit down to a science now. Mr. B always wants us to be first back to the starting line, so we power walk through all the members. THe little kids like to try and race me. I also have to space everyone when we start each time, so the band has made a big rivalry contest out of trying to be in the correct place before I get to them. Sometimes it even involves boys like Will physically picking me and moving me so that they are in the "right spot". We have our first parade tomorrow and our street costumes are darling-black unitards with a white skirts that flares out when we spin. I'm looking forward to the parades and I'll definetely miss mband. It's funny that Jonny and I are the only seniors in it now, but we have fun. I've also been absorbed into the Guard posse. Wish us luck tomorrow!

Babysitting's still a good time. Now that it's nice out, we spend the entire afternoon outside. As soon as we get home we hop on the 4wheelers and the golfcart and just tear around their yard and camp. I've mastered driving both the golfcart and the 4wheeler, I've proved what that golfcart can really do. It's also been christened "Rock biter".

I finally get to see Charles and all the CSAC staff tonight and tomorrow night for training at Amy. I can't wait to see everyone and to make our final plans for what our village is doing this summer. It'll be nice to get it figured out. once and for all. Ian and I have been strategizing through e-mails for months now. And it's always fun to just be with the camp people, I'm sure we'll watch bad movies, and play Steve's favorite, Powerball. Regardless, I'm happy. I have the jazz band dinner dance Sunday night, which is one of my favorite parts of the year. We play all our jazz band music, eat chicken and biscuits and get to see old members like Noah. I'm really looking forward to it.

My last highschool concert is soon. June 1st, if you want to come. I'm in every group in the concert, and each group is playing a ton of songs. It's going to be the longest concert EVER. I'll miss it though. Rock band will be fun (Takin' Care of Business, Get it On, and another song TBA) and I tried out for a solo in a song for chorus, and I ended up not getting that solo, but an entire solo song. Mrs. Herley says she wants to "highlight me" because I've worked so hard this year. I am doing "Think of Me" from the Phantom of the Opera because it's got a lot of memory. My very first year singing, 9th grade, I did Think of Me and got a standing ovation. It was a gift for my Mom and it was the first time I had ever sang solo and the only one up until this one. I remember Sam making sure he was sitting front and center and listening to every bit, and encouraging me both before and after my performance, wrapping me in huge hugs. He even downloaded the song after so he could have it. Now I'm going to do it for my final concert as my goodbye and my final gift to my Mom. I'm hoping everyone will remember when I sang it before, I still get comments on it. But it's a good last goodbye, and I hope I can do it justice.

So that's it. A few more weeks of babysitting and marching band, and then it's graduation. My grad party will be that night (the 24th) so stop by if you'd like. It's jsut going to be a lowkey party with a bonfire and cookout. It's the perfect house for it though. Camp starts the day after and then I leave right from camp for Naz, so only a few more weeks at home. Mom's getting sad, but she knew the time was coming. Right now I'm trying to finish up my classes, get everything straightened for Naz, and acquire all the warm clothing I can for camp this summer. I think I was a reptile in a former life, my body is extremely cold-blooded, there is no getting warm for me.
Now it's off to Canadaigua for shopping and so I can renew my learner's permit ( we had to alter it when we moved) so I CAN TAKE MY ROAD TEST ON THE 21st. I wonder how I'll do...

Love you, Charles.

Current Mood: excited
Friday, April 21st, 2006
11:14 am

I just obtained The Numa Numa Song thanks to a friendly bear that shares. :) It's quite possibly my very favorite right now.

Needless to say, I'm rocking out in my seat to the techno.

I also finally got "Everytime We Touch" from iTunes, so the search for the holy grail of Costa Rica trip songs is finally over.

I can't wait to torture my mom with my new songs on the way to the mall. It's gonna be a good day in the neighborhood. :D

Current Mood: bouncy
Tuesday, April 18th, 2006
12:28 pm
Looks like home to me.
Haven't wrote in a long time. I wrote an entry about finishing the play, but I accidentally backspaced and it all got deleted. Bogeys. Oh well.

Rockband is awesome. We had a really good rehearsal before school ended, Will and I are tight. :) The kid really is like my brother. But I brought all my Legend cds and we picked out some new material. We started working on "Get It On" by T. Rex which Kickbush loved, and we're doing "Spirit in the Sky" by Norman Greenbaum, possibly "Heartache Tonight" by The Eagles and "Crazy on You" by Heart if the boys will stop being pansies and learn to play the guitar. We had pizza and Will and I sang our lungs out, I got to be opinionated (the boys actually listened!) and I got to shout at Kickbush Will, Kickbush and I all jammed out with the stereo and Kickbush kept turning down the music just so he could hear me, it was pretty flattering praise from the man. 'Twas a good night.

We did a concert for the elementary for "Music In Our Schools" month a few weeks ago for rockband. The kids all sang songs (awesome songs through the decades) and dressed up for their appropriate decade. Despite only one grade having the '60s, I'd say at least 3/4 of the kids dressed in tie-dye, bandannas, and bell bottoms for their costumes. Kids these days... It took a lot to set up and take down the equipment, but it was worth it. We had the whole gym rocking when we did "Takin' Care of Business", Will and I were really into it.

I got a pretty yellow dress for prom. I need to go get all my other shite, I'm thinking all gold accessories and makeup. Charles mom actually made us get paint samples to match his tux to my dress. Needless to say, Charles was not pleased with her enforcing this.

Speaking of Charles, we're back together and things are great. It's unfortunate that it took breaking up to get back that loving feeling, but at least it's back, that's all that matters. The weekend we got back together, I went to the five hour course in Fairport and then he came and picked me up and we went back to his house for the weekend. It was really uncomfortable at first, I was pretty upset but we made up and had a lot of fun the rest of the weekend. We explored Thousand Acre Swamp for his Eagle project and went to dinner at Applebee's where I couldn't stop laughing because the golf commentary definetely inspired my dirty mind. Charles had to leave me the next day to go work on a project but we ended up getting to spend the afternoon together because my dad had to work late. Not to mention I got to watch Brokeback, or "Get off my back Mountain" as Charles and Todd like to call it, those classy men.

Marching band is a lot of fun. Katie Brockman and I are the new drum majors, which is awesome. There's very few older kids, but we have fun. We just giggle the whole time. And I love the actual Majoring bit, the arms are fun. I love getting to say 'Turn it up!' during "Sweet Home Alabama", and calling the commands. Katie and I are such wimps about it but at least we try. It's going ot be sweet when we start marching. I think we're getting cowboy hats for our costumes!!! =D It's also a good time to spend with brajah Will, we always walk back to the bandroom together and discuss all our latest. The conversation we had Wednesday was sweet, "Will you should play the field, man", "There's only one rose in the Naples field".

Charles and I got to spend the first part of vacation together, our parents were sweet and worked it out so we could spend the weekend together. Mom drove me up and Charles had to leave almost immmediately to go to an openhouse at RIT, so I watched movies for 4 hours. It was worth it, though, because Charles really liked it there. It would be nice to have him in the area. That night Steven took us out on the town in Ra-cha-cha. Charles and I went for a walk and played basketball in the driveway for awhile while we waited- bets were made, granny shots and behind the backs were thrown. I think we both know who the ultimate shooter in our pair is. :) Yeah....not me. Fooled ya, didn't I? But anyways, Steve picked us up and we went to Java's for my first time, wandered the Rochester streets, then to The Little to see "Thank You For Smoking" which I was too tired to get much of. Then I fell asleep in the car and twas woken up when hey took me to Empire Hots to get my first Garbage Plate at 11:30 at night. There were sketchy drunk/and/or/stoned highschoolers and Steve felt it necessary to document my sleepy first Garbage Plate adventure. ;P The next day I drove to Binghamton for my baby cousin's birthday at Highland Park. I got to play with Jilly and see my beloved aunt and uncle and meet Johanne, the cool minister from Sweeden who also went to Naz. Unfortunately, I scared his shy son who backed all the way up to the end of the bench when I sat down to talk to him. Whoops.

Easter we went to the traditional Sunrise Service at the cemetary. We saw the Wilseas' and went to breakfast with them afterward. It was really good to see them again, and it felt good to hear Carol talk about Ronan. They're doing better, at least outwardly, and I have so much love for that family. Either way, it was really good to see them and I'm glad I got to pal around with Flynn since they switched their music class time and I don't have them anymore. I'll have to start going to their classroom instead.

The college deposit got paid today, so Nazareth, here I come! It's official, and I'm entirely too happy.

I have been sick out of my mind since Saturday, so I'm attempting to cure myself. It's been a pretty low-key vacation since Charles left, I've been reading and doing yard and house work to help pay for my college deposit. I've also been studying for the AP and reading The DaVInci Code, which I recommend. I have to go get prom goodies on Friday, and the rest of the week will be devoted to work, reading, studying, and movie watching. Hopefully I'm going to have a girly sleepover tonight, it's much needed.

Happy belated Bunny Day everyone. And happy Easter to all religious folks.

Current Mood: drained
Sunday, April 2nd, 2006
8:55 pm
Radio plays that forgotten song..
As far as the rest of life goes, went to see The Lion King in Rochester Friday night. It felt so good to see it again, the music just rippled through me and it was so much to look at-the scenery, the costumes, the dance. It was so nice to see it my senior year.

Things with Charles are estranged. I'm just hitting that point I always do, but I don't WANT to. I just can't seem to get myself out of it. I try so hard, but then something just sets me off and I'm feeling the same way all over again. I know things will be perfect once summer comes around again, but I hate doing this to him right now. I'm just going to keep trying. I'm so sorry, Charles.

Babysitting is one of the best things in my life, who would have ever thought that would have happened, someone who used to turn down babysitting jobs all the time. The boys are my little brothers, and I feel so much love for them and take so much pride and care in watching over them. I love every afternoon I spend with them-I just get to act like a child for 2 hours every night. We play outside, I've gotten the boys to constantly act and come up with games with me. One of our favorites is where we play General Store, Brendon is the customer, I wear this hideous blonde Dolly Parton wig and call myself Hank and Donny is named Sally. We love to watch Drake and Josh after we're done playing every night and waiting for our mamas, TLC shows, and Jeff Corwin Experience, and watch Ice Age in the basement. We build forts, we run around and shout, we play in the creek, we tackle each other, we do impersonations. Especially now that the weather is nice, I love taking them outside. I used to partially dread going out in the cold to play. THe boys are so curious and love to tell me everything that happens in their little lives, and hear about all the things I do in highschool and have learned, and they teach me all about things in nature, and I teach them anything they want to know about being a teenager. We just eat up our time together and I'll be really sad when my job ends at the end of the school year. But then I get to have an entire camp summer filled with Donny and Brendons. I can't wait.

Driving is going awesome. I'm hoping to take my 5 hr this weekend, then learn how to parallel park, then take my road test as soon as possible. It's amazing that I can do the things I used to have so much trouble with without event hinking about it. I still suck at parking, though, no thanks to my Mama.

I really need to get a 2nd job and am trying desperately to get one. It's hard though, because I can only work random hours. But I have to pay for my prom ticket and dress, my college deposit, my last senior trip payment. Plus I need to get all sorts of things for camp, and spring clothing. There are just too many things that need paying for and nowhere near enough money to pay for all of it. I have no idea what to do.

Things with Steve SUCK. I was already left behind because of his new friend Coralie and now he's got a girlfriend. He didn't even show up to my play this weekend. It hurts so much and at the same time I feel such hate for him. He keeps trying, but it's never enough. Too little, too late, buddy. And the worst thing is I know how he really feels and yet he keeps destroying everything. I have no idea what's going to happen.

I went to Clark's Gully today after the play and strike with Laura,Lauren, Liz, Liz's boyfriend Michael and Liz's brothers. I wasn't asked at first, but I asked if I could go along because I need to get myself out of this shy habit. My dad always tells me "How do you think all these people always go out and do things? They ask if they can. No one's invited to EVERYTHING.", so I have to learn to be more assertive. I just have this huge fear that I won't be wanted or they'll resent that I invited myself, or I'll be bored. No matter how much less-self conscious and confident I've become the last year or so, I'm still so shy about hanging out with people. I'm hoping college will cure me of it, I always do great in situations where I'm meeting new people, like camp every summer. I'm fearless. But when it comes to people I've known, it's hard.

All in all, I'm happy. I've got good things going for me, and things always seem to work themselves out somehow for me. Corny and hypocritical as it sounds, my faith has helped me and helps me remain focused and strong. I try hard everyday, and things always work out, so I just need to keep going. The spring is here, which means a whole new time of highschool. I can't believe things are drawing to the end so fast. But it's all been worth it. Now's the time to really try to put myself out there.

Current Mood: sad
Saturday, March 25th, 2006
9:53 pm
MEME- Put iTunes on Shuffle, each song corresponds to a number/Question...

1. What's my mood like right now?
"What I Got"-- Sublime

2. How's tomorrow going to be for me?
"Eventually"-- ZOX

3. What kind of person am I?
"Welcome to My Life"-- Simple Plan  (Accurate at times...)

4. Am I loved?
"End of The Road"-- BoyzIIMen  (wow...)

How can I achieve my highest potential?
"California Love"-- Tupac  (apparrently I'm suppossed to lead a life in Cali? Would make my love of The OC and Laguna understandable, anyways)

6. What should I do with my life?
"American Baby"-- DMB  (love this song)

7. Is everything really going to be alright in the end?
"The Happiest Days of Our Lives"-- Pink Floyd  (there's your answer!)

8. What is my best quality?
"We Got It The Hard Way"-- Mary Chapin Carpenter  (story of my love life..)

9. How does my sex life look?
"Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic"-- THe Police  (hahahahaha. And it was one of me and Charles' summer songs!)

10. What's the meaning of life?
"Jenny From The Block"-- JLo  (apparently to live on the streets? then make it big? typical American pigs!)

11. What do people think of me?
"If You Ever DId Believe"-- Stevie Nicks  (great song from a GREAT movie-Practical Magic)

12. Would I make a good catch?
"Fun, Fun, Fun"-- The Beach Boys  (heck yes...and its one of the boys fI babysit's favorite songs. Too cute.)

13. How crazy am I?
"Shame On You"-- Indigo Girls  (guess I'm going to be living one hell of a college life)

14. Will I have a good life in general?
"Alabama Song (Whiskey Song)"-- The Doors  (a good booze-soaked life?)

15. Can (insert YOUR CRUSH'S name here) ever really love me?
"Wanted Dead or Alive"-- BonJovi  (don't know about love...but I'll be wanted. Even if I'm dead, that darned neckropheliac)

16. Can me and (insert YOUR CRUSH'S name here) ever be more than friends?
"Up On Salisbury Hill"-- Peter Gabriel  (Well, this song is about the second coming of Jesus. And Jesus loves me, this I know, for the Bible tells me so. So...yes)

17. What's going to happen to me this week?
"Jungle Love"-- The Steve Miller Band  (NO! That was a month ago when I was in 'Rica!)

18. Where will I be a year from now?
"Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)-- Eurythmics  ("Movin' on...")

19. What is my biggest wish?
"Bittersweet Symphony"-- The Verve  ("I feel free now..".)

20. What is the love of my life doing at this very moment?
"What I Like ABout You"-- THe Romantics  (doing what I like about him? Makes sense.)

21. How will I die?
"Send Me On My Way"-- Rusted Root

22. What will happen after I die?
"We Got The Beat"-- The GoGos  (partying it up in Heaven with the GoGos!)

23. How do my friends feel about me?
"Blue (Da Ba Dee)"-- Eiffel65  (no one knows the sad side of me)
Friday, March 3rd, 2006
4:55 pm
I could say "best trip ever" right now and it wouldn't even BEGIN to describe it. I'm just going to put everything I can remember,in a somewhat chronological order.

-Sunday. Rode with Will, Austin, Jamie and Deidre to the airport. Jamie's mom is a "cool mom" (think Mean Girls). Austin left her passport in the parking lot. Our flight got delayed so we had to sit next to those weird statues for 2 hours. I slept sitting up. Kaitlynn taught us Palace, which was played the rest of the trip. Sat with Will and Austin the last stretch of the flight, ate an in-flight meal (delicious! surprisingly non-toxic), discussed Will's love life, and watched The Legend Of Zorro.
Sunday night. Got to the hotel around 11. The site was beautiful, it looked like we were in Italy. We ate a midnight out on the terrace in the moonlight, hotel was in front of an ancient, beautiful opera house.Took an hour to get into the rooms, shared one with the senior girls. All woke up and street watched out our window the next morning. 

-Monday. Damn @ keys take strategic planning to type on spanish keyboards. Ate breakfast (our first taste of FRUIT!) on the terrace. Went to the INBIO ecological park, tour guide was adorable. Had to enter a hut surrounded by ants in cages on the wall and ceiling. Jamie got into a giant plastic turtle shell. Bought lots of presents for friends and family.

And from here on, time was lost. So I'll just give stories.
-Went to see the crater. Blustery cold, stinking sulfur. Drove back down mountain to eat first lunch in authentic Costa Rican restauraunt. First, and definetely not last, meal of rice and beans. It was delicious. Other groups showed up. Listened to the Mass. group's bad mix CD, Everytime We Touch and The Numa Numa Song became some our trip anthems. 

-Got to the Cataratas resort-beautiful, got to stay in cabins. Beetle the size of my mother-loving fist in our yard.
-Went to the Baldi hotsprings, an exotic over-the-top resort where they had giant pools heated by the volcano. It was amazing. Alicia and I sat at the bar (located in the middle of a pool!) and ordered virgin Pina Coladas. It was sweet-we got to sit in the water, drinking our drinks at the counter. The bartender attempted to hit on us in Spanish, Alicia had to explain it all to me. Everyone kept traveling in packs, that was the beginning of the Ian flirtations (Niki vs. Deidre).  Nick and I bonded over musicals, all the girls sang along while some guy sang "All By Myself" in the big building nearby.

-Niki was pretty boycrazy over the trip. SHe first spent all her with Ian, then ditched him for DJ, who she spent time with the rest of the trip. Her and Deidre fought over DJ. I'm so glad I stayed out of it.

-Tried to have an informal "dance" at Cataratas the 2nd night. Ian DJed, Deidre and I were the first to dance. I led her out onto the dance floor. :) All the Naples gals spent time getting dressed up because we wanted to dance. Everyone else left. Danced to Ian's hip hop, climax was reached when all the Naples girls, the drunk chaperone and an old man danced to "Sweet Home Alabama" in a circle. Went to hangout in the guys room afterward where "water" was being drank. The whole group was in there, we just laid on the beds talking. TOby almost got raped by the soccer chic at 2 in the morning.

-Went to the waterfall in La Fortuna when we were at Cataratas. Over 600 treacherous steps down a CLIFF. But it was so much fun. The waterfall was like being at the glen, and freezing cold. Climbed all over the rocks with Nick. Everyone had problems going back up.

-Went to Monteverde next. Paperthin walls in the hotel, roomed with the senior girls. Went salsa dancing at a local bar one of the nights, good American food served by hotel. DJ and the spanish kids, all the girls were "chicos" and the boys "chicas". All hung out in a big group in the lobby the second night, playing cards and talking. The weird girls yelled at us, tattled on us, then said "Dont make me tattle on you!" in that singsong voice. THe rest of the night was spent tormenting them-Nick dropped the armchair back in front of their room, "sincere apologies", we were waiting for a goal in the soccer game so we could all yell "GOAL!". I laughed so hard that night. Played indoor soccer on this awesome outdoor turf field on the top of the mountain. We went balls out and it was so much fun.

-Hike in the cloud forest reserve SUCKED. It was two hours of the most strenuous hike I've ever been on in my life. Got to wear big ugly boots. Took a picture with a warthog before we started. Hehe.  First part was fine, we traveled in a group. Ian's gas, 'nuff said. The way back was all uphill and everyone almost died. I was on the verge of an attack the entire time. We all drank Coke and bought that cake stuff when we got back.

-The beach hotel was AWESOME. Roomed with the senior girls in a cool little cabin room. Outdoor showers were awesome, even though they weren't intended for full body showering. :) Hit the beach as soon as we got there. We all played together in the waves, sun tanned, built a huge castle. We were all having mudfights and tackling and chasing each other on the beach and into the water. I can't even recall how many times I chased and was attacked. Nick layed like a beached whale at the shore line. I built a giant mudpit with the girls, we did our own spa treatments. Hung out on the deck/bar with everyone all night, both nights. Pool was played, the puppy was named, we did Karaoke one night. THe only downer was when we went for the moonlight walk on the beach. I've avoided going stargazing since they bought the star for Ronan after he died, I had forgotten all about it. I cried on the beach, it was horrible. Played on the beach in the morning.

-The zipline was INCREDIBLE. There were 16 of them, the best one was the last-I finally got to look around, it went all the way across the valley. Kaitlynn, Deidre and I were petrified to do the first one. It was fine when I started, but then I got stuck and twirled around and hand to climb backwards and upside down hand over hand to the next station. I was terrified, screaming and crying. The guy understood, and said it happened lots. I got chained to the cool down rope. :) The rest were awesome. I DID THE TARZAN SWING!!! The Tarzan swing is where you go up onto a tower, and you hold onto a long rope, like a vine. They push you off the tower, you free fall to the ground, then the rope catches you and you swing out over the forest. It was SO COOL. They made sure they videotaped me doing it because they knew I would be a good one. Those jerks. The spanish male belayers were such ladies men, it was hilarious. I met this cool older guy who was traveling on his own with his friends who was like a really cool version of Mike Boyle. "Adios guapas!"

-The boys sang "Dontcha" on the boatride.

-Will and I listened to my iPod for 3 hours on the bus. We have exact taste in music, no one else ever quite appreciates my iPod. We sat there singing and talking the whole time, saying "You like this song?! I like this song!" It was a once in a lifetime bonding experience.

-"Hero" became one of our themesongs. Tom started it. He serenaded us with it. Him and DJ would sing it over the bus intercom.

-6 hour bus rides almost every day.

-Played on the beach at Manuel Antonio. Saw what was suppossed to be a "sloth", just looked like the tree trunk to me. Went on the catamoran cruise, we all got fried. Got to lay on the cool nets over the water. Went snorkeling, got bashed into the reef. Threw food to the giant fish in the water, everyone jumped off the boat.

-Got called a hippie by Ian and the boys the whole time. Too bad I'm not. Carter said "I was his beautiful hippie though".

-Carter was one of our chaperones, it was just like having G on the trip. They sound exactly the same and I became his girl just like G. He would harrass me and tell me all his jokes and wink at me the whole time. He was so much fun.

-The group discovered my "bird laugh". I can't help it. When something makes me truly laugh hard, it comes out. There's no stopping it. So then they kept doing the things they knew would bring it on, so I'd laugh. Then they'd all laugh at my laugh. It was a vicious cycle.

-The last night we all layed on the basketball court togehter. We were all laying on each other and singing our songs. We hung out in our end of the hallway when we had to go inside-Ian did the "Ian face", we did superhero poses and thinking poses with tom, Palace was played, etc etc. The last night was so much fun. The bird laugh came out again, mostly because they making sure it did. Bastards.

-We all spent the last morning together by the pool. Ian twisted his happy trail and nipple hair into little dreads. Gross. Icecream runs. Tom's group was first to leave, we were so sad to see them go. Especially Tom. Playing tennis on the courts. The Naples group got to stay an extra afternoon and night, we had the hotel to ourselves. THe girls crammed into a tiny room after an icecream run to watch Jersey Girl. Then we invaded the boys room to watch it. Poker party that night, "Gracias mucho!".  Our busdriver only speaks Spanish, so I wrote the only thing I could on his thank-you card. Too bad the real way to say it is "Mucho gracias", unknown to me at the time. "DANG IT!"

-"Wheres my buttah?!"

-Costa Rican salsa sauce on everything we ate.

-The day my chai tea exploded everywhere, TWICE, at the all natural coffee shop. The girl thought Nick and I were siblings. Then my bottle of salsa exploded too. Dang it.

-Going into town all the time to use internet, shop, buy icecream.

-Everyone rocking out in the back of the bus at night to the techno in "Everytime We Touch"

-RENT!, everyone making me listen to it on headphones

-Accents. :) 20 minute discussions every day where we all just kept repeating the same words over and over to compare the different accents. The Mass. group said "wicked" and their chaperones had Boston accents- "Park the car in Harvard yard". The Long Islanders had crazy New York accents: "couffe", "wauta", "caull".


-Pablo's 10 minute speech over the bus intercom about how much he hates Nicaraguans and how they destroy Costa Rica. And fight like chickens.

-Fun times in Atlanta airport on way home. Cosmo, soduko, I tricked the Ben and Jerry's man. Mmmmm.

Charles and my dad were there to pick me up at the airport. It was so good to see them. We gave Jamie a ride home, we talked about the trip nonstop the whole way.

It was the trip of a lifetime. The group is still pretty close at school, we all talk now. And we all talk to the costa rican-ers online, and I created a myspace group for us, and we all just talk about the trip all the time. It's so pathetic, everyone's got it in their profiles, and no one but us understands the bond. :) I miss everyone so much and would go on the trip again first chance I got. We're all invited to DJ's for a week at the beginning of summer, but unfortunately it's right when camp starts. We're going to have reunion tours, though.

Saturday, February 18th, 2006
10:01 am
She talks to Angels.
Mildly eventful week.

Barely done anything in school. But, yet again, complex fractions kicked my ass. I just can't grasp those things. Every year I work and work to try and get them, and then I take the quiz on it and everything just flies out of my head. I'm banning complex fractions from the world, would anyone be upset?

Exciting swing with the Irondequoit boys. Spatolla IMed me on my old screen name the other night. It's been at least 2 years. We both said we always think of each other, but never have time to actually talk. But it was a good conversation, just like old times, even better. As soon as I get my license, I'm visiting them. PLUS. Paul is auditioning for schools for music education, too! This is why he is my favorite. Things between Brian and I are good as always, he's my brotha, but he got a tongue ring! It's pretty darn cool if you ask me, I left a comment that almost made myself sick. :D Oh how I miss the Irondequoit boys. I do, I do, I do-o.

Things with Charles are good as always. I'm looking forward to this weekend. I get to see him one last itme this weekend before I leave the country. Where, Cory informed me, I will receive herpes from the dirt. Love you too, Captain. ;P

Mucho excited about drama club, but wish it was longer. The read-through was really fun, I enjoy my part, and love my "siblings". Alex makes the perfect Edmund, and Emily read the White Witch perfectly, too bad she didn't get a part. Laura has already complained to Mrs. Allison about her lack of speaking lines, so I got to hear all about it from Deb and Joan after rehearsal. It'll be interesting to see how the play turns out. Looks like the tentative dates are that weekend where its the last day of March, first few days of April. We're probably doing 3 performances, I would love anyone who wanted to attend one, por favor. :)

Got to go to Peer LEadership quite a few times this week. My kids are one of the best parts of this year, and it's getting better every time I go over. They all make me sit next to them and love to play the games with me. Mrs. Harrison and I have a really good relationship, too, we talk about all kinds of things and she gives me advice. Plus, I get to help the kids in their regular classroom now. I told Mr. Bay I love the time I get to spend with his kids, and he offered for me to work in the classroom with them. I went and helped during a study hall during chorus, helping the kids to read and work on their spelling worksheets. It got me thinking that I wish I was going to college for elementary education. Which leads to my next point.

I got my letter from Naz last night. I was hoping it would be my scholarship package, but it was actually a letter stating I wasn't ready for the program yet. I was crushed at first, I bawled like my heart was broken, which only made my Mama cry. But once I was over the initial shock, I was fine. I'm sure they're right. I was only given 4 months in which to learn opera, and I did a great job, but I am no where near as trained as the other auditioners. Most of the girls said they'd been training for 4 years or more. 4 years as oppossed to 4 months is quite a difference. But I worked my ass off and I know I did a good job given the time frame. It hurts a little because rejection always does, but I'm proud of all I did. 

I am now going to go for just an Education degree, which I am really excited about, and now I can also focus on learning to sing classically for my own enjoyment. Takes a lot of the pressure off. I can apply to a ton more colleges now, since many schools have Education degrees. Nazareth said they still wanted me to attend the school, so I wrote back saying it was still my first choice and would like to attend for education. Now I just have to see what kind of financial package they give me. And if it's a sucky one, I'm willing to pay student loans out the butt 'till I'm retired. That's how much I know Nazareth is the school for me. 

I've also decided that I want to handle as much as the finances for college as I can. I know my parents would be willing to help as much as they could, they're so proud of all I've done, but with all that Jamie has caused the family, finances are incredibly tight, so I want to help all that I can. Nazareth is what I want, and I'll work for it.

I love when I get Columbian fleeces for 20 bucks. It made my day.

I refuse to bring that bright orange and blue backpack EF tours provided us all to bring on the trip. If I'm going to bring that, I might as well just write "Mug me, I'm American" and be done with it. No thank you.

Lesterface and I talked last night, and he's been thinking lately of applying to colleges for music education. We've always talked of going to college together, and now that he's actually thinking of it, it makes other things that have happened recently hurt less. I also looked at Sterling for him, but I wouldn't even get to visit before a deposit would be due. So it's just not possible. But even if we didn't attend the same college, having him closer would be great. Not to mention, Charles is thinking of going to school locally, which is the best news I've heard in my life.

And now I need to stop writing. I can't wait to spend tonight with Charles and I can't WAIT to leave for Costa Rica tomorrow. Ecstatic is a dramatic understatement right now. I just hope my flight isn't cancelled due to weather like poor Erinn's was. Honeoye was going to Spain, I hope they got to take a later flight. WISH ME LUCK!

Love you, Charles. Have a good 10 days, everyone.

Current Mood: bouncy
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
3:49 pm
The tide is high, but I'm holding on.
I have bought fantastic new crappy music from iTunes. Songs I've always wanted. Like "Total Eclipse of the Heart". And "That's The Way It Is". I'm a happy girl.

I can't even remember the last time I updated. But sporadic events will be yours to read. :)

Andy and I just pretended we were in a high-end car chase, wearing aviators, on our ride home. I got to yell "Follow that car!" And then I found gourmet cookies not made by my mother when I got home. It's gonna be a good day, Tater. 

I had my Naz audition. I did really well, and I had fun wandering the music hall with the other audition-ees. I even got put into an intermediate sight singing class after being dreadful any other time I've ever tried. Hannah was not there to guide me, the bum.  I finally got me some good Aladdin's eatin'. Then Mom and I waited for 2 hours for Charles. Ended up being yuppies and sipping coffee in Dunkin' Donuts.

Roberts audition the other day. Herley dragged me around the campus, which I really didn't care to see. Crazy Christian school. 

Went to a couple parties with Charles' Penfield crowd- the swim team and the managers. They're all good people. Stu is my favorite. We went to a Superbowl party in TIm Gerlach's "humble abode". I was rooting hard for the Sea Hawks, but alas. However, they did come out to "Bittersweet Symphony". Commercial selection was dissapointing, thought 'Jagger was gonna break a hip right then and there on stage. Even his lips seem to have deflated. Sad what old age does to you. Also went to a "Mohawk party" Saturday night. All the swimmers bleached their hair, now they all have mohawks, and Thursday night they shave their heads. I won't even submit you to what I think that looks like. Like being with his team, but was virtually ignored by Charles the whole time. We had our first real fight that night and the next morning. But besides that, I did get to help give Stu patches. ANd his team is good people, so not a horrible event. Kyle thought I was asking where his bedroom was when I asked for the bathroom. ...That was awkward.

Had drama club auditions the other night. Went to Laura's house beforehand. We went to the tanning salon, the lady thought we were both exchange students, had a senior reunion. Went back to her house, gained a new little friend- an adorable little girl named Fennel who took over me. Talked in her room, ate pizza, walked to Ash's to pick her up. Alex and I sang "Seasons of Love" in the street. ANd I made the poor morning choice of Crocs sans socks. I think I acquired my first case of frostbite. 

Got results for drama club. We are doing "The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe", and I am cast as Susan. I have a feeling they will probably recast Lauren and I as she is currently playing the youngest girl and I am the oldest....and she's about a foot taller and looks years older than I. But it's going to be a great show, so come grace us with your presence.

COSTA RICA THIS SUNDAY. It is too exciting. But I'm convinced I should just put myself in a bubble and save us all the trouble. "Don't drink the water, you'll get diarrhea."  "Don't carry any money because you will be pick pocketed...But don't carry a card because you will be pickpocketed."  "You WILL get malaria in the canopy."  "The restaurant utensils will give you hepatitis."  "Don't drink anything, because big hairy Puorto Rican men will slip something into your drink, carry you off, and have their way with you."  This is all dramatic exageration, but come on, folks. I should just bubble myself, and be done with it. And Charles' mom really did warn me not to drink anything in case someone tries to slip something into my drink. Should I be worried his mom is more concerned about me than my own? But I can't wait for sun, friends, sights and pretty clothes. This is going to be the best trip ever. And I've dubbed us all "Costa Rican friends for LIFE!"  CRFFL, for short. :D Look for pictures after my trip.

A few hours to myself, then jazz band. By the way, Happy Valentines day, you little stinkers. Wish I could be with you today, Charles.

Love you, Charles.

Current Mood: flirty
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
5:08 pm
Before the MySpace frenzy.

Before the Internet & text messaging.

Before Sidekicks & iPods.


Before PlayStation2 or X-BOX.

Before the 5 hours of homework you put off every night.


When you rented VHS tapes, not DVDs.

When gas was $0.95 a gallon & Caller ID was a new thing.

When we recorded stuff on VCRs & paid $3.50 for a movie.

When we called the radio station to request songs to hear off our walkmans.

When 2Pac and Biggie where alive.

When the Chicago Bulls were the best team ever.

Way back.


Get Over Here!!!! means something to you.

Hide-n-Go Seek at dusk.

Red Light, Green Light.

Heads Up 7 Up.

Playing Kickball & Dodgeball until your porch light came on.



Tree Houses.

Hula Hoops.

Reading R.L. Stine's Goose Bumps.

The annoying Nano Pets & Furbies.

Running through the sprinklers.

Crying when Mufasa died in the Lion King.

Happy Meals where you chose a Barbie or a Hot Wheels car.

Getting the privelage to sit in the front seat of the car.

Drinking Sqeeze It "Squeeze The Fun Out Of It"


Watching Saturday Morning Cartoons in your PJ's still wrapped up in your Garfield comforter.

Hey Arnold, Doug, Rugrats.

The original Power Rangers

Or what about:

The Secret Life of Alex Mac.

Ren & Stimpy.

Double Dare.

Rocko's Modern Life. (BEST SHOW EVER)


Wild & Crazy Kids.

Clarissa Explains it All.

salute your shorts(CAMP ANAWANA)

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

The original cast members of all that.

Kenan & Kel.


magic school bus.

flash forward.

pete and pete.

legends of the hidden temple.

hey dude.


pinky and the brain.


hangin with mr.copper.


bill-nye the science guy.


Who could forget Snick? & Nick @ Nite with Bewitched, I Dream of Jenie, The Facts of Life & I Love Lucy.

Where everyone wanted to be in love after watching The Wonder Years.

or nick jr. with face

gulah gulah island

little bear

under the unbrella tree

the busy world of richard scary

the adventures of winnie the pooh

Kool-Aid was the drink of choice.

Wearing your new shoes on the first day of school.

Class field trips.


When Christmas was the most exciting time of year.

When $5 seemed like a million, & another dollar a miracle.

When you begged to go to McDonalds for dinner everyday.

When Toys R Us overuled the mall.

Go back to the time when

Decisions were made by going 'eeny-meeny-miney-moe'.

Mistakes were corrected by simply exclaiming 'do over!'

'Race issue' ment arguing about who ran the fastest.

Money issues were handled by whoever was banker in 'Monopoly'.

It wasn't odd to have two or three 'best' friends.

Being old referred to anyone over 20.

A chance to skate as a couple at the local roller rink was like winning the lottery.

Scrapes & bruises were kissed & made better.

It was a big deal to finally be tall enought to ride the 'big people' rides at the fair.

When playing Nintendo was the hardest thing ever. SEGA!!!!!!!

When Ninja Turtles ruled the world.

When Lisa Frank was the raddest thing ever.

When a candy bar at the grocery store was the highlight of your day.

When coupons collected all year could get you a prize in your class auction.

When the only thing you cried over was your mom being late to pick you up.

When stress was addition and subtraction.

When friendships were as complicated as who's house to sleep over and who's to TP

When shaving cream was just meant for play.

When a first kiss only lead to cooties.

When valentines day meant cards for all.

When birthdays were a class event.

When a friend moving away was the saddest day of your life.

who would have thought youd miss the 90's so much

Post this in your bulletin only if you remember these days

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